I love the symbolism encoded in my last day in India being a Leap Day. A day that is added every four years to help keep our calendars in sync with the solar system it is created to track. An added day for me to dial in and integrate the lessons and experience of being in India over the last month.
What do I vow to leap into? What have I learned during the past 29 days of my healing journey?
#1 Allowing myself to be seen and admired for my courage and strength has been a life changing choice. Opening my heart to humbly accept these offerings of kindness has empowered me beyond my full comprehension. I vow to leap into keeping my heart open to continue accepting and offering the powerful gift of being seen and appreciated.
#2 The power, courage, and raw determination that comes from deep within my physical body by connecting to breath and devotion far surpasses any thought or mental expression I can generate. I vow to leap into the powerfully divine and primal energy that my physical body intuitively knows and understands.
#3 The more I can accept that my understanding of reality is full of paradoxical and contradictory beliefs, the deeper I will go in the process of connecting to the truth that lies in my existence. I vow to leap into holding paradoxical beliefs as a golden gift from God.
"I have no where to go, and my heart yearns to travel."
"I am perfect exactly as I am, and I long to grow, deepen and expand."
"The world is the most beautiful place possible, and it is filled with suffering and injustice.'
#4 There are no answers to seek outside of myself and fear is my greatest ally in the pursuit of true inner self-knowledge. To fearfully and fearlessly look deeply within, to actively seek true inner self-knowledge, is an act of service toward the greater good. I vow to leap into the continual and revolutionary process of fearful and fearless self-discovery.
These deep and powerful lessons awoke during the India chapter of my healing journey during my daily asana practice, during and after my Ayurvedic treatments,through my time in reflection, from David's teachings this month and are concisely clarified in a Kabir poem he read to us in a Savasana:
I said to the wanting-creature inside me:
What is this river you want to cross?
There are no travelers on the river-road, and no road.
Do you see anyone moving about on that bank, or resting?
There is no river at all, and no boat, and no boatman.
There is no tow rope either, and no one to pull it.
There is no ground, no sky, no time, no bank, no ford!
And there is no body, and no mind!
Do you believe there is some place that will make the soul less thirsty?
In that great absence you will find nothing.
Be strong then, and enter into your own body;
there you have a solid place for your feet.
Think about it carefully!
Don't go off somewhere else!
Kabir says this: just throw away all thoughts of imaginary things,
and stand firm in that which you are."
Lizandra Vidal is a poet, writer, and wellness expert. In 2015 she suffered a spinal cord injury and this blog is a space where she shares the story of her experience.